Ananääs

Apeshit is out of control angry or excited

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Juusto - Finnish

And some rat taste buds!

Just ask me to select the images with traffic lights in them, of course. Being a human I will fail at least a couple times because I’m not sure if that image with the corner of a traffic light should be selected or not.

Yes, of Angmar

Haven’t heard about them being heat sensitive more than any other pill, but eg. Elvanse capsules start to dissolve if they come in touch with moisture causing them to become fragile, so I’d put a bit of cotton or paper if I were to stash those.

I have Earpeace plugs and the container is hanging from my keyring, the lower compartment holds pills nicely.

Feels, I struggle with the same issue as well. I suppose for me at least it’s the shame I’ve built up over the years for being different/“wrong” all the time and the low self-esteem and fear of rejection it has caused as well as general lack of security in relationships. One ends up expecting anger and rejection from others so of course it tries to avoid being confronted/blamed and instead reason/explain the situation away. Or shift blame. Being on spectrum can make us impulsive and dramatic so being reasonable and taking a step back is difficult when there already is a conflict. It does help me to realize that being AuDHD has a big impact on how I handle (or don’t) conflicts and having this explanation helps me tackle the shame and communicate the reasons for my shittyness to my partner, and change my behavior step by step where needed. It takes a lot of trust though and a shared interest on improving the relationship.

Maybe a little bit OT but if you enjoy a different perspective on the history of humanity I’d recommend Humankind: A Hopeful History by Rutger Bregman.

“It argues that people are decent at heart and proposes a new worldview based on the corollaries of this optimistic view of human beings. It argues against ideas of humankind’s essential egotism and malevolence. The book engages in a multi-disciplinary study of historical events, an examination of scientific studies, and philosophical argumentation in order to advance Bregman’s opinion that, this outlook is more realistic compared to its negative counterpart.” -Wikipedia

“Just call me Wöstösö” -Worcestershire probably

I got a (old) sailing boat a few years back. At least I wasn’t completely alone in that business, but the others weren’t exactly the most responsible people either. We sold the boat after a year, and I feel that I dodged a bullet by a narrow margin. I have only some experience sailing and couldn’t go by myself, also winter storage and things related to that are quite the hassle and it seemed that it would end up being my responsibility to sort those, among other things, out in the future.

Now I’ve got a motorbike and like with that boat I was at first very interested in learning stuff related to it, maintenance and everything, but it seems that I always need someone else to inspire me to keep going. Now I have to rely on my partner to take initiative. I’m totally happy fixing it and enjoy riding a lot, but can’t f*cking do it alone and that annoys me so much. I feel like a failure for not being able to “follow my dreams” without someone holding my hand. I’d like to get a van to build it into a small place for myself, but I know I couldn’t go anywhere by myself.

Now that I’ve realised this novelty-seeking tendency I try to not get too excited about new things (or at least make any investments) before I’m sure the inspiration will last. But then again I need something to be excited about to keep going. But to keep excitement going I need someone to share it with.

Maybe we need to collectively buy an island and establish a neurospice nation where we could arrange work and stuff so that there’s enough rotation to keep things interesting and allow people to hyperfocus on those things that they enjoy but let them swap when needed XD

Damn. :( for me methylphenidate caused massive dissociation and anger, so couldn’t take it. Elvanse is much better and reduces my general anxiety a lot as well as mood swings, but evenings are getting harder and harder because of the crash and also as I’m increasing the dose I sleep worse (I fall asleep fine but wake up several times middle of night).

I realized that a big problem for myself is that I subconsciously focus intensely on anxious thoughts. I feel like Howl in Howl’s moving castle where he summons the darkness upon himself. It was really eye opening to read that difficulties with attention can show up like that.

In the beginning with Elvanse I experienced sudden thoughts/feelings about an oncoming panic attack (!ALERT! 10 SECONDS TO PANIC - 10 - 9 - 8…) but for me realizing that conscious re-directing of attention to something else helped. Then the thoughts seemed to go away at some point.

Also the starting dose (30mg) was too big for me and I’ve slowly been going from 15mg to 50mg. I mix it with water and take it over a course of about one hour so it doesn’t strike so hard and crash is not so sudden. It really wasn’t pleasant in the beginning to try to cope with the intense physical feeling it causes, especially with the attention on IS THIS NORMAL, SHOULD I BE FEELING THIS WAY, THIS CAN’T BE RIGHT -thoughts.

Some people take beta-blockers with Elvanse to reduce the physical uneasiness. For me it helps to a certain degree.

But people are different and not all meds work with everyone.

Turn the digital clocks upside down. Did this accidentally to myself once and when I saw it at night I thought for a moment the universe had disintegrated. Startled pretty bad.

Also: mosquito sounds.

If you want to practice for your ghastly career you can start by Cenafying your loved ones!

Sounds a lot like Finland doesn’t it? I believe if our name is on it then it’s ours!

I’d get stuck in the mines

Try not to sit in the shower, if you do it won’t be possible to leave.

Haha samesies! Moment of normalization and ease.