Most days yeah, I’m 23 and struggling most of the time with how boring life is to me, I got hobbies that I never have the energy to do and new experiences just seem too much of an effort to try them out.

I have a deeply rooted romantization of death too so that definitely doesn’t help

From Spain here, the only things that you need to pay for is medicine if for example you need treatment for something and it’s always pretty cheap as long as you are getting it because you went to the doctor. No need to pay for surgeries or anything broken, unless they are cosmetic of course, and you can call an ambulance for free too.