No, because I’m fine being on my own.

I have my hobbies and pets, and if I feel too isolated I can go out and chat with a neighbour or any stranger on the street, or to a concert to be one with the crowd, or pick up an online game.

If I was with someone for money, it’s only because I didn’t like them enough to be with them for free. In this circumstance I would probably need the money, so I’d not be unhappy about it, but it would definitely not make me happy either or be an emotional boon. And I don’t think I could respect the person who paid, no matter how convincingly I would pretend to.

Relationships are best when they are wanted, not needed, which is why I could never be with someone who was only with me because I paid them: I’d much rather be alone than be with someone who didn’t like me. Paying for it is a surefire way of knowing they don’t actually like me, and the idea of someone being with me against their own wants and desires just because I pay them…I would just feel so gross. It’s okay to be alone.

Regardless of which phrase is being said, I think it’s nice that we have a little rituals here and there.

A sneeze is often loud, sudden, startling and disruptive, so having a standard word or short phrase can ease us back into normal conversation mode without derailing the preceeding conversation (like actually asking if someone is okay could take us too far from the original topic). A quiet sneeze recuires no easing out of.

If I do a loud sneeze and no one says any variant of gesuntheit, I feel compelled to mildly apologise (pardon/excuse me) before carrying on, so one party does the little ritual to bridge between violent sound and normal speaking either way. Can be nice to “bless” the sneezer so they dont have to apologise for disrupting.

I’m certain the damage made them like that.

It could happen to any of us, and I’m going to go out on a limb and guess that you, like me, aren’t constantly suppressing potty-mouth.

I kinda wonder the opposite, if there is a part of them buried and suffering that really cringes at themselves and would like to stop but has no control over these compulsions.

The fertilization happens only at that white spot on the yolk, the egg cell/germinal disc which is what becomes the embryo, so that’s determining factor for where the embryo begins.

Since you say you can take the meds in secret, I assume she isn’t your medical or legal caretaker and isn’t required to administer your medications?

If you are your own guardian and can administer your own medication, there is no need to lie about it, nor wait for her to approve of it.

If she was with you last time you were on medication: Are her objections based on how you reacted to it then, like did you change in any way (stop listening, prioritised other things, become emotionally closed off or volatile)?

Are you diagnosis and will get a prescription from a doctor, or would this be self-medicating?

Does she have any other objections youbhavent listed here?

I really don’t think its a good idea to do these things in secret. The diagnosis is a part of you, either she can accept it or she doesn’t accept you.

Couples counseling for sure! (non-religious, they may be free, but they may also just feed into her rejection of pharmaceuticals - very difficultto know beforehand… find one who works with neuro-divergent people, and if that therapist doesn’t do couples they can refer you to someone who does)

Seven comma five.

It sounds normal when it’s not translated to English.

I think its important to specify here that “poor hygiene” includes putting soap and other stuff on or in the vagina - stuff that for many other body parts would be good hygiene.

Proper hygiene consists of clean underwear every day, mild unscented soap on mons pubis and outside the vulva (thighs, ass), and only water on the outer parts of the vulva (labia, clitoris etc), and absolutely nothing inside the vaginal canal. The vagina is constantly flushing itself out, and trying to clean it’s inside is only ruining it’s process of self-cleaning.

Infections are most common when unsuitable stuff is introduced to the sensitive environment: perfume, soap, poorly washed sex toys or body parts introducing bacteria; or choosing wrong material for condoms, sex toys or underwear. Not washing or changing underwear can also lead to strong smells, but is by far not the most common one reason for infections.

And the solution is to not play things in public without headphones.

Being able to forge a new relationship with them after a few years apart. To get to know and understand them as flawed people rather than imperfect parents, and them in turn learning to respect and trust me as an adult.

And being able to take as long baths as I want without any disruptions.

But is it “Good god. You all.” or “Good god, y’all.”?

I bought myself a new name on impulse.

I had been joking about considering taking that name on and off my whole life, but didn’t expect the name change approval papers to show up a couple of weeks after a bender.

Turns out joking about stuff for a long time can just rewire your brain, and I’m actually really happy with my new name.

Probably whoever is in gravest danger or, if the danger is percieved as equal, who physically closest to them at the time.

If one of you are able to save themselves they would save the other. If neither could save themselves they wouldn’t run past one of you to look for the other but get the first one they see out first.

I don’t think trying to figure out favourites like this is worth thinking about, past the sbive point. If you dwell on thoughts like this beyond a slight curiosity it might just be your mind trying to come up with different ways to hurt you and make you suffer emotionally. Don’t let it.

Yes, more when going to bed than waking up though.

Let me introduce you to “I’m The Villain In My Own Story”: https://youtu.be/UhzN7SfnNeY

From the excellent (though sometimes emotionally heavy) show Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. It’s certainly not the best song in the show, but the most relevant.

And in the artery to that vein, let me present “I’m A Good Person”: https://youtu.be/O4hh1YhDfbA

(Edited to clarify these are not the best songs in the show, there are better songs and in a wide variety of genres!)

To be the artery to your vein:

It’s better the ask and sound ignorant, than say nothing and remain so.

It’s only as awkward as you and the other person makes it, and you sound like you made it pretty awkward for yourself before even giving the other person a chance to be non-awkward about it.

The way I see it: If it’s something the person can fix immediately, like a downed zipper or food in their teeth or visible booger, tell them (discreetly) immediately. If it’s not fixable at the time, don’t draw attention to it.

And I dont know how “oh, you seem to have a zipper malfunction” could ever be seen as trying to hit on someone, so you’d likely have been fine if you hadn’t blown it out of proportion.

Additionally: if you start waffling about and overexplaing, youll make it awkward for yhe other person, if you just mention it casually like you’d mention the weather they won’t feel like its a big deal for you to have seen it. I would appreciate it at least, rather than notice by myself and wonder how many people have seen my underwear or visible booger during the day.

Carrots will not grant you the ability to see in the dark, but have many other benefits. Remember to stock up on carrots when able.

It absolutely could. There could be different options to manage symptoms depending on if they occur at onset, at peak, during withdrawal, or after withdrawal.

But as for answering your question: no, I have far less cravings on meds than off. I have slightly more cravings at night when the meds have worn off, but still almost none unless I’m off the meds for like a week or more.

I have more snacking cravings on meds though. Once I specified it to be late afternoons/evenings, I figured out was because I don’t eat enough during the day on meds, then I could manage that symptom by solving the issue.

Is it when the medicine is active or is it a withdrawal symptom?

I feel ya. I always have to go through and clean up my notes immediately when I can still recall what they may have meant, or the meaning will be lost to time.

I second the recording, it seems like the surest way to save your thoughts word for word but i personallydont like speakingout loud while thinking.

You can type your notes on your phone if you’re as quick or quicker there than by hand. Autocorrect will mess up some words but those will probably be understandable through context rather than the whole sentence being unreadable.

Or try mind-mapping where you only have to write a few words and draw connections between them. This can take some time to practice, and you can figure out your own sort of shorthands for figures and imagery.

I also like bullet points, where I make sure to make key words readable and can add details that may or may not be legible, but the key words are likely to trigger the same thoughts later as when writing them down.

And always go through and clean up whatever notes or voice memos you take as soon as possible after when it’s still relevant in your mind.

A woman doesn’t have to be feminine, there are plenty of masc and butch women. Would you feel more comfortable with short hair? There are also other options. Would you feel more comfortable thinking of yourself as a man (men can also be feminine or masculine), or neither, or both?

I didn’t feel comfortable calling myself a woman, but not crossing any gender boundary, I just always preferred “girl”. I didn’t feel mature enough to be a woman until I kinda forced myself to claim that title. With enough use I now feel comfortable referring to myself as a woman.

Titles and gender can be hard. You are allowed to experiment until you find the expression and terminology that suits you. But also, its okay to feel ridiculous, you can grow into feeling comfortable with whichever terminology you want.